There’s this guy that i was totally in love with my 9-12th grade year, we have a bond that’s out of this world but being young and I’m HS we didn’t work out. He dealt w shitty people and i did too. It’s been 2 years out of high school and no matter who I’m with my feelings have NEVER changed about him. We’ve never had sex(huge for me bc i typically want sex in a relationship and it becomes a focal point) and all I’ve ever cared about is our friendship and him. Well not talk for months and when we do it’s for hours and i feel like I just saw him yesterday... we’re 20 now and we both have always promised to never mess up our relationship with meaningless sex and always learn about each other and when we feel things are perfect we’ll shoot for a relationship.. no other guys make me feel as safe as he does, idk if my feelings are wrong to have... they never go away. I’m not in love with the guy I’m casually dating either and i wasn’t for the guy before or the guy before that... he’s always been so special to me. I have no one to talk too so I’m venting on here