Just a little venting... infertility sucks... 😢

I’m 32 and a uterine cancer survivor with PCOS and history of endometriosis. My chances are slim as heck. I’m already considered in advanced maternal age after several surgeries and chemo to save my uterus (and life). I went through hell to keep my reproductive organs so I can be a mom one day. It’s so depressing. We’ve been trying for 6 months now. Nothing. Doctors say it can take some time, yet I don’t have a whole lot of time. I always feel so hopeless and scared I’ll never be a mom. To possibly never be able to have a child of my own makes me feel like I can never really be a completely whole woman. I can’t even stand being around pregnant women and infants. Just makes me sad. My sister in law was such a huge jerk and announced her pregnancy on Christmas knowing I was trying to have a happy Christmas despite my struggle with infertility. So yeah... totally unfair that others can just get pregnant like BOOP! I’m so conflicted for others and their pregnancies. I’m happy yet so sad and jealous.