I can never see myself married or having another relationship again. I would never be able to trust someone. My ex said he was cheated on in both his previous relationships before me, one of his ex's had months affairs with some other guy, she chatted to guys in front of him. He told me he'd never do that to someone because he knows what it feels like. What does he do? The exact same fucking thing. It fucking kills and I feel so much pain. I never wanna be with anyone in a relationship again. I need to heal from this and just casually see people I think in future not be serious that way they can't cheat if you're not exclusive, I never wanna fall for someone and feel happy with someone only to have it all broken again. The pain is indescribable. I know it'll get better but right now I'm fed up of crying. I'm fed up of thinking. I'm fed up of feeling. Anyone else wish you could switch off your emotions like they do in the vampire diaries?