I fell in love with someone that in the beginning made life feel worth enjoying again, love could be real, two people could be one more then sexauly, never break loyalty or honesty; someone that helped a broken being grow in happiness, fight against axeity, the past and betrayal.

Now, that someone also makes life grey most days from fighting, lies, doesnt seem attracted to me sexaully or as a person like I'm boring, breakes promise also doesnt seem like he cares that I cry from him breaking my heart.

Finally today I said I have no trust in you, you broke the last promise, tell too many lies, and do the opposite of what makes me feel loved. Yet I also cry because I know I never want to imagen a future without him, I'm madly and deeply inlove with the person I know he can be or is when we have good days... So I dont know what to do, I dont want to leave but I cant force him to listen, understand or do better in are relationship.. But I cant force to just fall out of love with him either. I dont know if I should stay and see or it's just not ment to be.