Venting about my insecurities

Caridad • 19/ Aries / MDC Class of '21 /

I hate looking at the person in the mirror . My self esteem is so low. I’ve been feeling this way since I was a child. I’ve tried to learn to love myself but I just can’t. I’ve been called cute but I just feel like people is just being nice . My self esteem has affected me so much dude . It reached to the point where I can’t even make eye contact with a person. Like right now I’m talking to this amazing guy and I just sometimes push him away because I feel like I don’t deserve someone so amazing as him or I’m not enough for his level . my biggest insecurity is my nose, I feel like it’s so huge . I even booked a rhinoplasty consultation and my family members are telling me I don’t need it and I should learn to love myself or contour or whatever . Im not looking for comments to try to make me feel better but idk someone who could relate and vent with me.