okay i been single for 5 months now and the last relationship i was in was with a guy was with for over a year and i consider him my “first love” cuz i did everything with him and lost my v card to him too so when i say everything i mean everything with him it wand ya good relationship tbh and i was depressed and heartbroken majority of the time and when he left me 5 months ago it broke my heart more than i had ever been broken and tbh when i think about hi and everything he did and how everything happen i still hurt from it cuz it painful but i’m way better than i was before bcuz i’m actually happy but now the problem is i wanna start trying to find me a new man but i’m scared that i’m not ready or that when i get into talking with that person ima crush them away or now allow them in or to actually love me bcuz i will feel they gon do what my ex did or hurt me or whatever like idk what to do tbh bcuz i feel i’m ready but what if i’m not ? 🤷🏼‍♀️