Can you help me

Okay so I’ve been wanting a menstrual cup for awhile now and I’ve had my eye on one specifically, a Lena cup. So today I asked my mom if she could get me one because my cousin stole all my money and never gave it back but that’s not important, she said you know you can die from that and I said yes I know but it’s very rarely and she said I don’t think you should wear them anyway and then I got upset because I’m tired of feeling like I’m sitting in blood I mean it’s disgusting right. So I told her ok but if I can find another way to get one with out her buying it then I could wear one. I just wanna be comfortable 😩