HOW DO YALL DO IT??

Jahna • TTC bubba #2 👶🏽, 1 angel baby 👼🏼

How do you all wake up everyday, shower,brush your hair/teeth/ have breakfast, get dressed, do your hair/makeup, how do y’all go to work, shopping, to hang with friends,to the park, how do y’all smile when speaking or being spoken to, how do y’all laugh and make jokes, how do y’all find the will power to just breathe and be okay,

Every single day, from morning to night all I can think about is why, why do I have pcos

, why me, why can’t I get pregnant at the click of a finger but all these 13-16 year olds can, why do I have to go through this pain and heartbreak, why do I have to miss out, why do I have to try so hard for a baby, why can’t it “just happen” like everyone said it will, why does my life have to be consumed by the horrible thought of never having a baby of my own, why do I find it so hard to look at myself in the mirror without being repulsed, why do I have to feel “broken”

Broken because for 3 years I’ve watched everyone I know get pregnant, why do all these people get multiple children’s and treat them like absolute sh*t but I can’t have just one, WHY ?????

😔☹️😔☹️😔☹️😔☹️

I’ve had many challenges thrown at me in life, but this, THIS, this is the worst one by far,

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Mi

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Im there with you! It feels incredibly hard and it’s heartbreaking every-single-day! The struggles are many and the climb is high, but im so sure it’ll be worth it. They say getting pregnant with PCOS is difficult but not impossible! Keep your head and your hopes up. it will happen for us and our babies are gonna be beautiful warriors and born into the most loving homes that have been waiting for them for such long time! You are not alone!!!

Re

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In in the same boat honey but we've been trying to let it happen for 3-5 yrs(don't remember off hand) Andi have pcos and at first it wasn't hard just living it was only hard when people around me starting getting pregnant at least 6 so far just in the last 2 years. I was only angry for a short while then it was just overwhelming sadness but it would only last a few hrs my husband would hold me talk to me tell me plans to get healthier(I'm also obese) and I'd feel better that there is hope for the future. If I could lose this weight and be a normal weight women I tell myself ill get pregnant fast but I haven't been able to stick to any diet plan for more than 2-4 weeks without reverting to old habits. Its so depressing thinking I'm never going to have children because I am the problem, because I'm weak and undisciplined, because I'm broken physically and maybe emotionally(as I'm an emotional/bored eater). Sorry for the rant I guess I just wanted my story out there too, so to answer your question how do I do it I guess I just live one day at a time and don't even think about getting pregnant or wanting to be pregnant. I'm so use to seeing negative tests from irregular cycles that I almost don't think I can have children 99% of the time so if I think that it doesn't hurt when I get my period its just a period.(and trust me getting a period is so much better than not having a period for months and not being pregnant 😢) but deep down I knows its possible but its hard after all this time not to think negatively so that if I get my period is like eh but if I don't get it there is that small hope that resurfaces. I know that if I ever do get pregnant I'm gonna totally be one of those women who takes multiple tests and still doesn't believe it! There is a light at the end of the tunnel the key to happiness is not to obsess about it focus on something else in your life, improving your relationship with your SO, start a new class or hobby, learn a new language etc. It may not help but its worth a try. Good luck!

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Rebecca • Mar 5, 2019
Your welcome! It is so nice to not feel like I'm the only one in this situation. Usually stories of women struggling with ttc are skinny and they are like its been 3 months why am I not pregnant? So not relatable to me. Thank you, I'll pray for you too 😊

Ja

Jahna • Mar 5, 2019
3-6 months lol damn autocorrect

Ja

Jahna • Mar 5, 2019
I absolutely love this, I’m also obese and can never seem to stick to a diet, in 2016 I lost 23 kilos in 8 months, I was 117kilos and went down to 95 kilos, I was SO frickin proud of myself but within a matter of 36 months I put all that weight back on, even tho I know that if I just lost the weight it would all be so much easier but the depression makes it so difficult, my mum said to me today “so would I you rather just forget about and and not better yourself and ruin the chance of having children, or would you rather better yourself now for your future children” and it really woke me up, it reminded me that it’s not just about me it’s about my beautiful future children and that the most important to me, I feel better knowing that someone else understands and knows how I feel, I hope and pray that you and get healthy and have children of our own ❤️ thank you for commenting back to me, it really helps me