A few weeks ago I went in for an

<a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IUI</a>

consult and found out after my labs that I was already pregnant! We didnt think it was possible to conceive on our own (5yr TTC naturally). Anyway, we went back for 1st ultrasound at 7wks. They said I was measuring 5w6d-6w and no heartbeat or flicker so they told me maybe my dates were off. I came bk the following week, today, supposed to be 8wks, still no heart beat. The "baby" is bigger but not developing normally. They said it looks like a mass of cells and recommended terminate the pregnancy. I saw a flicker on the ultrasound and they did too but said it was probably waves from the ultrasound. When he turned the audio on there was no heartbeat. When he highlighted the organs, the flicker didnt light up. They did more bloodwork and said everything lab wise was normal and hcg is still rising but since the ultrasound was abnormal I need to come back next week for another ultrasound. In the meantime expect a miscarriage and if I pass anything to put it in a specimen cup and bring it to them to run tests... My husband is away for work for the month. I'm all alone and I feel like the world is crashing on my head. Each time I've been sent away and told to come back I get a sense of hope but today when they recommended terminating, I lost all hope. How can this be? I'm so sad.