So my friend and I were hanging out and venting about life. He keep touching me and getting close to me. I keep telling him stop. Eventually he started throwing himself at me trying to kiss me I keep turning away telling him I can't do this and stop but he wouldn't get his hands off me. He forced me to role over and he tried to take off my pants I held on to them, he got them down and I tried to pull them up multiple times he ended up raping me I was trying to push him off and pull my pants up he wouldn't stop I started crying I keep saying no stop I can't do this but he continued he. He said this stays between us how am I supposed to not say anything to anyone when he forced me after I said not stop I can't do this like 50 times and now I don't want to eat or go to school and I cry myself to sleep. I feel like I did something wrong for this to happen I feel like it's my fault