Making babies shouldn’t be this hard!

After a total of 5 lost pregnancies and no children, Ive been trying since November to become pregnant again, with no luck.

It was never a struggle with my previous 5 pregnancies to become pregnant. I always got from people and doctors, “at least you know you can get pregnant”. Now here I am unable to get a positive test for the past 5 months. I haven’t even had the time to worry about “will this next pregnancy stick” because it won’t start!

My husband and I are struggling with stress of not only a history of miscarriages but now infertility. I started Clomid last month. Today my period is due, but of course negative test! My period has been consistently late for the past several months due to progesterone suppositories and now adding Clomid. These things are suppose to help me achieve and maintain pregnancy, But it’s only lengthened my cycle and added more stress.

I’m tired of watching people in my life become pregnant and maintain pregnancy so easily. It’s not suppose to be this hard. My whole world has become about fertility. I’ve made some positive lifestyle changes like low impact exercising 5 times per week, low carb/sugar diet, stopped drinking anything except water, no caffeine or alcohol, and daily prenatal vitamin. I’m doing all the things to make my health and fertility better, while other women in the world are becoming “accidentally” pregnant.

I’m so angry with my body and fertility. I try to be optimistic each month that passes, but it’s so flipping hard!