So lately I've been struggling a lot with knowing where and who I am. I was diagnosed with PTSD when I was 5 so I've never really lived without it. Now that I live in an environment where I feel safe 24/7, my anxiety is acting up big time, even at little things like when my boyfriend accidentally drops something. When I was 12 (I'm 18 now) I started writing about anything and everything then turned to songs, and that was what I based my "abnormality" on, telling myself im special because of it. Lately I've had no desire to write or do anything else and I've been struggling with the thought of "I'm normal" because I dont like being normal. I dont like being like everyone else, I like being different. I tried to explain it to my boyfriend but I ended up breaking down and crying for a solid 10 minutes because he didnt understand what i was trying to say. I just dont know what to do to curb my anxiety. It's really been getting out of hand lately...