I feel pressure to start conceiving again because I will be 35 next year and my first isnnow 18 months. But I still am so tired and fight with my husband over stupid shit that u feel like we wouldn’t argue as much about if I was more rested but my toddler is soo attached to Me Lately.

It’s better now that he’s older and I really want him to have a sibling that’s close in age but days like

Today when we have big blow up fights esp in front of my toddler which I think is disgusting and I literally had to step away and go upstairs to shut it down because I don’t want my baby to keep seeing us yelling and arguing. My husband refuses to go to marriage counseling and says I should go since I need to work on stuff and am into counseling he thinks it’s a waste of time . I tried doing that lasting online relationship help app - he wasn’t interested. When we are good we are great but stressed tired and cranky version of us is awful. I struggled with PPD and never got help with it the first time so the weight of taking care of two kids and being emotionally and mentally weaker makes me so nervous because my doc said you’re more likely to have it again ....ugh I wish I was 5 years younger 😭😭😭