Im 22, had an abortion June 2018. I’ve always been desperate to be a mum but the day I found out I was pregnant changed my whole world. I wasn’t in a relationship, I still stayed at home, I’m not financially stable, the father of the baby was actually my best friend we had been fooling around a lot. We both then came to the decision to terminate the pregnancy. It was the most horrific experience I have ever ever been through, seeing my baby going down the toilet. I can’t get this image out of my head every time I’m around babies I just get upset and brings back the pain and all the emotions I felt that day. There is an upside to this because my best friend is now my boyfriend and that is what brought us together and I couldn’t be happier and I know it was the best decision for us both but I cannot seem to get over it at all and it’s just constantly bringing me down. Does it get any easier, any advice welcome x