Okay so last week was my 8th DC field trip. The way my school works is there are 2 middle schools that combine into one high school. There was this guy from the other middle school on my bus, who I’d heard about but never met. The second day of the trip, we were on the buses going site seeing and he asked my friend for my number to play iMessage games. I thought he was cute and he seemed popular so ofc I gave it to him and was a little nervous but also excited. We played the whole trip, and by the end we talked more. He has a girlfriend, who I knew about, so I kinda questioned him when he became flirty. When we talked in person, we both told each other that we would date each other, except that he has a girlfriend. Tuesday morning we arrived back home, and that afternoon he called me to talk through more of the stuff. We talked on the phone for 5 hours, just about everything. He plays soccer, he’s very interested in the world and it’s science, he compliments me, and is so sweet and makes me feel good. He told me he loved me, as a friend and a little more. But he’s so loyal and couldn’t break his girlfriends heart (which I admire). So, we decided to play the long game. They kinda have some problems and he thinks they’ll eventually break up. So, one day maybe we’ll date. And I do think we will. So he’s been having a lot of trouble making a decision about what to do.

The next night, we fell asleep on the phone, and it got really flirty. He sang to me and he’s hispanic so I started learning some spanish on duolingo, and he said that was hot. But at the same time, he has a girlfriend. And he’s very honest with her, and told her that we’d been kinda flirty and she broke down, and he decided to stay with her. And that’s when I knew it couldn’t be like it was. And it didn’t change too too much the next couple days but today I felt like this mix of sadness, but at the same time numbness. I don’t know if I’m supposed to be here. I’ve cut down our communication a bit today. We facetimed and he’ll always be like you always look good let me see your face. He’s so sweet and makes me feel like I belong and I’d never met anyone like that who was taken by me in that way. I’ve been talking to one of my friends about it the whole time. And I feel like it’s not going to be what I want to hear (Idk exactly what I want to hear) but I thought I would reach out and get some more opinions and ask you guys. I’d really appreciate it. Thank you!!