33 WeekS- Need to Vent

33 Weeks 1 day and this little girl has dropped. Walking is becoming painful since I can feel her more in my hips. Everyday tasks are becoming harder even though I still attempt to do the most because I cannot find any sense of contentment with organization or the cleanliness of anything. I feel like life is giving me a pimp slap to the face.. which is making me feel real down. My nausea/lack of appetite has come back & I ‘m exhausted. My relationship is .. not the best right now. He was very ready to step up to the plate & had his ducks in a row pre-pregnancy but it seems like the pregnancy has broken his brain & made him lose sight on a lot of things. I told him I was thinking of leaving today after finding out about somethings revolving another female.. I feel like I’ve let my daughter down by bringing her into this world like this. I want everything to be perfect for her.. I don’t want her to have the same chaotic & messy childhood I did. Anyways..without getting into the full details I just needed to talk about my mental state somewhere. Thankfully I ‘ll be done working in 2 weeks and able to just take a break before she gets here.

Ps. The mark to the Left of my belly button is a scar from my endometriosis laparoscopy. I have a lot of people ask me about it when they feel my tummy or see it so I thought i’d mention it.