Boudoir pictures

So recently I have gotten some boudoir pictures done for my boyfriend to try to spice things up.

I am soooo nervous to give them to him. I’ve never been this size in my whole life and had a baby 6 months ago. My self confidence has gone to shit, and I feel like my low self image is going to totally ruin the whole gift because I hate myself.

I’m not sure if I should give them to him and just fake it that I like the pictures, or don’t give them to him yet until I’ve mastered loving this new body I’m in?