Why am I like this???

I talk a big game about not comparing previous pregnancies, especially losses, but I am TERRIBLE. I’m over analyzing ever little thing. I’m 10 dpo, I’ve had decent cramps all day, my hcg quant was lower than I wanted (just 12) and my progesterone was only 12, the said they were going to call in suppositories, so I drove all the way to the pharmacy, they didn’t call them in 😑, and now I’m just crabby and feeling down. I just want a healthy babe so bad. I know the feeling of loss. I don’t want to experience it again. Soooo....I made some comparison photos. Please talk me down. Please.

Here’s a 48 hour difference.

Here’s a 24 hour difference

Here’s a 15 hour difference