is it just me or...

idk if i’m alone on this or what but i absolutely can’t stand chocolate while i’m on my period and i have really intense suicidal thoughts and relapses, especially on days 1-3. i absolutely hate everyone and everything as i get so easily irritated at this stage in the cycle. sometimes i can’t even move because, due to the monstrous amount of bloating and abdominal cramps, my mobility is compromised. i’m also really sore today from some workouts i did yesterday with a friend, so now my butt, my legs, and my stomach all hurt very, very bad. i have laundry to do and i can barely move. not without some kind of bionic assistance from a crutch or a cane, anyway. usually it’s not this bad until day two, so idk what’s happening right now, but i know i hate it. 😭😭😭😭