I have a wedding November 2019

I only work 3 days a week due to me being a full time college student.

I’m working my ass off in school as well trying to keep up with work.

I can’t miss any work days because I’m trying to help as much as I can as well get a promotion .

But I’m having health issues.

I have an artery in my head that swells causing a lot of pain. I’ve been Off my steroids for a couple days and woke up today with the worst head pains I can’t work like this because it affects my eyes to. And I run fever with these “migraines” really it’s from my artery being swollen. The doctors are getting my blood work back and ready for MRI and most likely head surgery to fix this . I also suffer from a stomach disease so I’m a mess lately okay.

And I’m depressed. I’m suppose to be helping but here I am crying in pain on a Sunday calling out when I’m trying to get this promotion I’ve been waiting 2 months to hear about and trying to save for my wedding that I can’t wait for. And I’m in so much pain.

I feel like a failure. Like I just cried my self back to sleep this morning. I’m 21 years old I should be doing so much more than laid up in this bed in pain all the time.

On top of all this I can’t fix into my wedding dress anymore so 🤷🏼‍♀️ having to loose weight to so my self esteem is so low lately

And my grandpa just got diagnosed with stage 4 cancer with 2 months to live so my emotions are craycray and I’m just sad.