Homophobe

I hate how homophobic my grandfather is like he'll say that its cool and ok but then ill be sitting here watching sister james charles and Jeffree Star and 5 seconds into the video he'll basically tell me to watch anything but I'm just like look bitch I watch them because I like how they can get their faces so snatched and I'm just like well I shine like the trashcan I come from honey... I'm bi and its times like that I don't think id be accepted if I came out sometimes ill see others who have come out and think they are so much happier and Just exude happiness and I think ok I'm just gonna do it sure I might not find someone to like me and take me seriously but at least I won't have to hide myself anymore and then he turns on the homophobe and I'm just like ok ill wear my straight costume for awhile