So I’ve been in an on and off relationship for 2 years with this guy that I’m completely in love with. But just yesterday I had to end things with him because I got tired of feeling like I wasn’t enough. I’ve been battling with ptsd for alittle over 3 years and I’ve finally overcome a lot of my issues that have cause my depression, some from the relationship as well. I thought things were finally getting better in my relationship, but just recently I found him texting his ex and it completely caused my insecurities all over again. Throughout these 2 years of our relationship we’ve been on and off because he just wouldn’t stop communicating with his ex, where as his ex still wants to be with him. Everytime I would question him about her he’d always have an excuse saying she’s suicidal or she has no one. And it’s frustrating because I feel like she does things like that to get him to focus on her. I hate it because he should be focused on me not her. I’m kind of mad at myself at this point because I’ve allowed my feelings to take over instead of just leaving when he first made me feel disrespected. I’m glad I did end things yesterday but now my feelings are hurt because I feel like I did all I could to make the relationship work. I just feel like him not cutting her off was him taking her side. Everytime he’d get caught he’d say he’ll cut her off then months later he’d end up talking to her all over again. I wish it could be so easy to just forget and not feel so hurt. This situation kind of makes me feel worthless, but I know I have to keep telling myself that I deserve better.