I love too much

I'm 17 years old and I've crushed on at least 6 different guys growing up, been rejected, and dated a guy I never really loved out of desperation. I know one day I'll find someone that I like and actually like me back. But for now I feel defeated. I always go after the guy that will never want me so I lowered my standards and lived in misery for 6 months. I just want someone to love me. For me. My heart hurts.