Hi, I’m a 16 years old girl and I’m a victim of multiple illegal sexual acts. I’m not on here for attention or anything, I just want to share my story because I’ve been bottling it up and I think I’ve had enough. Please, if you’ve experienced anything similar, please share your story if you can, it would really help me know that I’m not alone.

Some of the acts that I remember:

- Got catfished by an old man and tricked into sending him naked pictures of myself, I was then threatened of being exposed if I don’t keep sending pictures. (I was 12-13)

- Got pressured to take off my clothes and play with my self on a live I was on. (I was 12)

- Got manipulated into playing a points “game” where you earn a point for doing sexual things, the more sexual the higher points, I got into first place by earning 6,000+ points. (I was 12-13)

- Was getting constantly told inappropriate things, touched inappropriately, and got kissed multiple times by my friends older brother. (I was 10-11 and he was in his 20s)

- Was pinned down and had my face dry humped on by a random guy, it was brushed off as “just a joke” by his parents. (I was 11)

- constantly got catcalled multiple times by random men on the street, my mother said I should be happy because that means I’m beautiful. (Ever since I was 10)

- Way more that I can’t remember at the moment.

P.S. some of the incidents happened multiple times.

If you’ve noticed, most of the incidents were either brushed of by older people that I’m supposed to look up to, and even encouraged at times, or did it out of my own will, after some manipulation. This isn’t because I’m a worthless and shameless girl, it’s because growing up, I was taught that as a girl, I’m nothing but an object to men, my sole purpose is to satisfy them. I believed everything, until 1 year ago, when I realized that men aren’t my purpose in life, that I’m more than an object, that I am me for who I am and not for how men view me.

However, I’m still coming to terms with that. I still, to this day, think about what men will think when I dress up and try to wear what’s most revealing and attention grabbing. I’m also still coming to terms with my sexuality, because growing up around a solely hetero and very homophobic environment, it’s uncomfortable to me to imagine myself with another girl, even though, deep inside, I know that my attraction to women is way more than men.

Growing up, I was never safe to be me, I’m still not, but I hope soon, I can leave to a safer environment.

(Sorry this is a total grammar mess, I wrote it to share something personal and emotional, and I’m not very grammarly focused when I’m emotional, I hope it’s still readable though)