Is it wrong I want to keep this a secret

Sorry long

I am currently 12 weeks +3 with my 4th baby and I'm super excited however I don't want to share the excitement with anyone except my husband and our kids

See my mom never wanted me to have kids after my first cause it was a difficult pregnancy, I went into labor at 30 weeks and had to be on bedrest. The entire time she treated me like a child and questioned my every move.

My second pregnancy was fine I was just dilated at 3 for the last 2 months.

My last pregnancy was the worst. At 9 weeks I started bleeding and they found out it was a sub chronic hemorrhage they didn't put me on bedrest just told me ot should go away on it's own and it didn't. It eventually ate away at the placenta and my water broke at 20 weeks, they didn't test me properly or hook.me up to anything just sent me home. 2 weeks later I started contracting and bleeding. They get the bleeding to stop but send me home. Finally they gave me a ultrasound and saw there was no water surrounding my baby. They wouldn't keep me cause I wasnt 24 weeks pregnant. Needless to say I almost died was really close to needing a blood transfusion got an infection and sadly my 4th son passed away at birth born at 23 weeks, only 1 week away from them considering him viable. (Way more happened but I don't want to go into detail. )

Any ways my husband and I grieved for 2 years it was the hardest thing we ever went through even separated cause well I had PTSD from it all but just pushed my feelings inside and buried them and pushed him away.

We still talked were coparenting our sons great hes my best friend and just started over everything is going great. December was our 8 year wedding anniversary (we didn't divorce) and in January what would of been on our 11th year of us being together we found out we were pregnant.

We were in shock and really scared until we had our first ultrasound and everything with baby was fine.

I don't want to tell anyone about this baby especially my parents because I know they will give me a hard time about it. I feel like I want to keep.this excitement between just us 4 as long as I can. I know my mom will get mad at me and it's sad that I'm almost 29 and feel this way.

I have been avoiding her and not wanting to see her or my dad or my brothers.

Is it wrong of me? I just don't want to be stressed. I don't want to listen to how I shouldn't of done this cause last time I almost died. I want it positive

I'm going to be 29 and I feel like I'm treated like a young child all the time with her.

Sorry so long here are pictures of my boys just cause