I’ve been exhausted and no energy or umph while at work lately. Anxiety all the time and it has been effecting my productivity. I took something the other day to help. Because I was going to work with some one is making work hard. During the first half of my shift I didn’t think it was working. That maybe the anxiety was in my hand. But then. I had like three hours of my shift left and I was doing stuff I’ve been wanting to at work. I should be excited. But. The stuff I took for anxiety wore off and everything came crashing down on me and I was on the verge of a major panic attack.

It was amazing that that feeling was gone. The sped up heart rate and feeling like I was doing something wrong. Like I was gunna mess up. That I should be doing more and better that I’m about to get bitched at by something. But I was so concentrated on the fact I wasn’t feeling that that I still didn’t get at much work done.

During the times when it’s not nagging at me. I’m exhausted and just can’t bring my self to have the umph and will to do what I need to. I can’t seem to have the energy to do the easiest things at work.

Even projects at home I want to do. They shouldn’t be hard, but just thinking about doing them tires me.

I was in the middle of game making degree in college. Took some classes so I know the basics, enough to make models and characters before dropping out because I lost the power to go. But when I even think about even making the most basic thing my brain goes mush and makes me want to curl up in bed and sleep.

My cats died last year and I have never needed my babies to cuddle with more than I have this month.

I can’t even curl up next to my bf because he’s million miles away.

I’ve thought about getting another pet to have but my living situation isn’t suitable for another animal