The past week, I had to plan my stillborn baby’s memorial service.

Today was the day.

I have a 10 month old boy so I knew I had to be strong through all of this for him.

But today, as my family and I were all in a circle holding hands, my husband was saying a prayer and I lost it. I couldn’t hold back my tears anymore. I couldn’t be strong anymore. I don’t usually cry in front of anyone besides my husband occasionally.

Anyone who is going through this, I am so deeply sorry. It is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to go through.