For the longest time, I would always freak out mentally during blowjobs. Are used to think it was because I was afraid of doing it wrong, but I just realized that maybe it is because my ex locked me in the car and forced me to give him a blowjob. He even held my head down. I now realize that it caused by that memory . Does anyone have any tricks so I can not freak out?

Update: I gave my boyfriend a blowjob today and he gave me space and let me stop when I needed to. It wasn’t as bad as before!