I'm just ova it

Last few days I've been cramping bad..

It's tough at times knowing your period is coming and your cramping before it starts.. it's emotionally draining because of course I want to be pregnant but the cramping happens every month before I start my cycle so I guess its another month of no baby yet.. After years of praying and hoping I'm over it, after we get get on our feet financially again I'm going to a specialist.. I thought I would be able to conceive without one but my husband 50 I'm 36 we been together 13 years married 12 and not 1 pregnancy.... its like after praying for years about it and nothing happened I cant keep waiting because it may not happen naturally, it sucks we have not been able to conceive naturally but I'm not giving up in believing the Doctors can help us...

It's so unfair, life has always been super challenging for me so to continue with this issue makes me cry.. I just pray life does not continue to keep me in last place when I'm just trying to get ahead... 😩😩😭😭