He filed yesterday

I would have been six years in June.. I wasn’t ready and now I’m ready and he’s not. I want things to work out now that I am ready and for my family to be together, we have a 4 year old daughter. I’d like for him to fall back in love with me, kinda like I fell for him. He pulled me out of a dark place while he was deployed and I feel so selfish for the years I hurt him while I was finding myself. I can’t blame him if he finds someone else but I feel in my heart I’d always set a place for him at thanksgiving hoping one day he’ll find his way back. We married at 20&22. 💔 I’m in a bad place & this is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do.