HELP ME!

But it’s crazy cause I have a bf and it’s like idk anymore we can’t ever see each other cause of my step dad he won’t let me date or see him and I hate that because I love him so much and I don’t wanna lose him but we barley talk and it hurts me it messes me up sometimes when I feel alone it makes me feel single and makes me feel more open to other guys and it kills me because I don’t wanna hurt him even tho I don’t like these other guys like I like him it feels like that for a second but I know all I want is him I just want the attention and sometimes when I can’t get it from him I try to get it from other guys and I know I’m not a cheater but sometimes I feel like one and sometimes other guys call me one but long distance is hard for the both of us but we really wanna work out atleast I do but idk if he does anymore cause it’s alot of drama with my step dad but he promised he wouldn’t give up ughhhh I need y’all help😭