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Weight loss for life gain

Si • Sun, Apr 07

153 pounds ago what I have today was just a dream. Something unachievable. Insane menstrual cycles where I would bleed for weeks at a time and then not have a period for months all while spotting randomly. No energy, no motivation, countless OBGYN’S refusing to help and telling me to “lose weight”... Well I did. It was hard to take a step back, realize my faults and work on them. It was hard, LONG, confusing but so fucking worth it. After losing 100 pounds my periods regulated (literally every cycle was on time down to the hour...) and I lost the remaining 53 slowly and I finally felt ready to try again. I was so scared because if this didn’t work, what would? I could NEVER afford

and the emotional turmoil of dealing with infertility. 2 cycles in I got my BFP! Sadly it ended in miscarriage at 8 weeks... I know everyone heals differently, but for me, I needed to get pregnant again as soon as possible to prove to myself my body could do it. And again, right away after one cycle i got a BFP❤️ I woke up the next day after my positive test and was bleeding heavily. It was a confirmed “chemical pregnancy” (extremely early miscarriage) and I was devastated. I was spending all my time worrying about getting pregnant I never thought about the staying pregnant part.... We decided to give it one more shot. The day my period was due it didn’t show but I didn’t get excited...I was too scared to. I really didn’t want to know and have it taken away again. But another couple days passed and my mom begged me to take the test. And there it was BFP!!! I was so scared. The weeks leading up to my first appointment were agony.... Constantly going to the bathroom just to check for bleeding, worrying about every little twinge I felt. But the first appointment came and I saw a miracle on the screen. My healthy baby with a healthy heart beat, something I had never seen before. Now she is 8 months old, healthy as can be and my family is thriving. I have never felt such pure bliss and happiness in life. My heart is with all those still trying and those who have suffered a loss. We are all mamas who love fiercely every day for a baby we haven’t even met yet. Stay strong and NEVER give up. Yes