I went to a gender revel for a friend of mine. I’m a month ahead of her. When she opened the box and the blue balloons came out she jumped into her husbands arms and they looked to happy and I couldn’t help but feel sad. The guy I was with left and wanted nothing to do with us when I told him so I held it together but as soon as I left, I just broke down in the car 😔 I want to have what they have. I hate that my son won’t have his father... it sucks because I didn’t have my dad growing up.