Friendship not relationships

Me and my best friend have been friends for a little under 7 years and it’s had it’s good and bad sides

But I constantly feel like second best to her

For example today

We went to a class and she said she’d stay with me until 1pm however it got to 11:30am and she said she was leaving but with two other friend and that she’d been invited over to one of their houses despite her saying she’d stay with me leaving me on my own

And then we went out with a group of friends to a field to chill ect and I was sat on my own and she said ‘*her name* won’t talk to me so I’ll sit with you instead’

It just makes me feel worthless like I’m only there when she needs me to be and when she had no one else

She cancels plans on me all the time and for example she’ll say I’ll get ready at yours before a party but cancel on me an hour before and get ready with other people again leaving me on my own

But when you only really have two close friends it’s not easy just to say she’s not treating me right I’ll just cut the friendship off because I know that’s what I should do but I ended up needing counselling when I did it before and we ended up being friends again

It’s such a hard situation