Baby isn’t even here yet but I feel like I failed her already. I’m 27 weeks and I haven’t even started on her room, I have not bought a single thing for her yet. Long story short, I had savings and everything was already covered. However, shit the fan..one after the other and now all my savings are gone. I feel so down, there are a lot of mommies here who are so ready, even has the room ready and everything. I’m failing her already and she isn’t even here yet!

What have I done? 😭

I also have not gone to any classes for the baby because all I do is work. When I do take time off, it’s to go to my doctor’s appointment. Can’t get a doula around me because it’s costs 1000. I also just recently moved so no baby shower for me, gender reveal, or maternity pics besides the one I do myself,

I’m just doing everything wrong. I want all these for my baby yet I can’t even do it. I’m such a terrible mom.

Update:

I agree it’s a shit attitude but the feeling of not being able to provide and create memories to celebrate your child is very frustrating. I understand that material things shouldn’t be priority but again it’s that feeling of helplessness or lack of control in the situation we are in is also one of the reasons why I feel so negative and down about the situation. At the end of the day, we all want the best for our child.