Touchy

So.. I recently went through getting an abortion.. I know I’m horrible. I was so pressured by my mother and aunt because they hated who the dad was... But I love who he is and understand he can’t help what he came from... He grew up with nothing and I want to be that person who gives him everything. I felt so saddened by getting that abortion and taking the only thing he ever wanted away. But I was not strong enough to just ignore their hatred towards the fact... My procedure was done 1/26/19. The father of the child and I are still together and I recently found out I am pregnant again... 6 weeks and 3 days today. I don’t think I want to tell my mom until I’m past around 15 weeks. I just don’t think it’s right for a mother to make her child feel like she should get an abortion even if she does not want to... Thoughts?