I feel so mean

I’m a first time mom and was feeling so excited to find out what we were having. I wasn’t sure what I would of liked if I could of chose just wanted a happy and healthy baby

We found out we’re having a girl of course I’m excited but I feel strange I don’t feel like omg I’m having a girl I just feel like I’m being mean.

My other half seems happy even though I know he would of liked a boy but doesn’t every guy?!

All is fine with baby and she’s looking good so that’s the main thing. Maybe it hasn’t sunk in yet. I feel mean for feeling this way. I don’t think it will hit me until they are born. I feel so bad :(

Has anyone else felt like this?