Love life

There’s one thing that ,ales me different from most kids in middle school, I’m a lesbian. I just told my crush I like her today and she turned me down but she still wants to be friends, she told me that she isn’t gay and we can’t be together. I have been getting mixed signals from her and now I don’t know if I want to cut or not. I slept off most of the pain but I’m still heart broken with how it went.

What have I done?