I don’t know if I’m the only one that feels this way?

I recently got married with my husband and we were completely happy I found out I was pregnant before we got married and me made me keep with this pregnancy I hate being pregnant I wanted to get married but not have a baby right now because I have a son already from my ex even my family forced me to have this child I don’t want and never wanted I just want to abort and tell him it was a miscarriage I feel resentment for this baby I just want it to be us two without having a baby that will ruin our relationship we barely even make love anymore and when we do he only uses doggy style not even missionary anymore because he says he would be hurting the baby I get to mad some people in my family don’t know about my pregnancy I barely go out so no one sees me like this with this pregnancy I just don’t feel a relationship or a married couple will only be happy with kids he says that he wants us to have kids because it will make our relationship stronger but I don’t feel this way I would rather have an abortion instead of regretting having a baby I never wanted to have that I didn’t plan to have. I wish everyday I could just naturally miscarry even his mom is against abortion his whole family but I believe it’s much better to regret having an abortion then having to regret bringing an unwanted baby to the world without having a good mother that feels love for it and takes good care of it I once had an abortion from someone else a long time ago and I thought I had regrets but I don’t regret that decision at all because having that baby would have ruined my life I don’t know how could other couples and married couples be so happy to live together with having kids and are happy with being pregnant but I’m here just unhappy with this pregnancy.