It’s hard to make money and it gets spent so quick and easily. The struggle people go through at work....🤦🏾‍♀️

I’m 19 years old, I’ll turn 20 soon

Idek if I wanna live or not. Sometimes I just want to end my life because I’m not even good at anything and idek what I wanna do with my life. I’m a shy person and I don’t like talking to people. I’ve worked before and I didn’t have good experience. One worker was always rude to me and my supervisor was always telling me that I’m not good enough and that I’m not fast enough. I wish i was good at something or at least I wish I had more confidence in me. when I worked back in 2016 the boss even paid me less saying that I’m too slow. I’m just not good enough 😞and I can’t even change how I am. It’s just so hard, I’ve always been crying. Right now I am unemployed and I’m so not ready to start working again, I’ve applied to few and got rejected and some haven’t even gotten back to me, I feel so useless...all I want to do is cry and drink.

I’m also probably going to be single for life because I don’t know what I want and I’m asexual. I’m insecure too.

Its all just eating me up and sometimes it gets to me bad.

I don’t have anyone to talk to...I like this guy who I text daily, he messages me a lot too but I don’t think we’re on that level. I just need someone...I’m so alone omg 🤧I do have a crush on him but idk if he feels the same way and I would rather be with someone who’s asexual too and I doubt he is. I just wish I was a normal person atleast...there are too many negatives in me idek where to start

This is just me expressing myself and how I feel.

I really don’t want to exist (edited)