I hate myself

What can I say. I hate myself. I have considered suicide as an emergency route because I hate myself so much. I tried going anorexic. I tried throwing up. I tried biting myself. I tried not being anorexic. I tried being nice. I tried being quiet. I tried being loud. I tried being annoying. I tried. I'm so tired of trying. So tired that the emergency route seems very close. Seems very-

Very optional. I'm tired. I just want to sleep. I just want sleep