I’m really sad


So my ex is making him breaking up with me my fault, and telling people how bad I am to people that are my friends that are females because I haven’t gotten back with him when he’s asked and some of my friends are double sided and idk what to do, I mean a girl that is being friendly to me just told me how awful and fucked up I am, and this guy said he could say a lot of stuff about me but wont, and it makes me depressed because I’m starting to believe it, and may feel like everyone would be better off without me

I need help