Does this guilt of them being in the NICU and me being home go away? I’m sitting here at 4 am crying as I pump missing them so much.

They were born at 32 weeks 5 days via emergency csection because I was dilated to a 4 and baby A’s sack was protruding. I was given steroids and magnesium at 30 weeks. Baby A is a girl and was 4.9lbs and 17.4 inches baby B is a boy and was 5.1lbs and 18 inches. Baby A was doing better on the breathing than Baby B and so far he has been about 24 hours behind her. So far Baby A is off all breathing support and is doing well on her own. Baby B is off CPap and is only on a nasal cannula right now.