I’ve had 3 miscarriages and 3 weeks ago started antidepressants.

Today I’ve had a vvvvvvfl on a test. I haven’t reacted the way I did in the past.

I almost want to keep it my little secret for now, I just don’t know how to feel. I almost feel numb, I’m scared of a fourth miscarriage. So I feel like I’m not accepting it.

I just feel confused, at a time I know I should be so happy and excited.