ok y’all i just need to RANT. so we’re going to call my ex door knob and my man candle.

(be ready for profanity and sorry if this is all over the place lmao) soooooo door knob was a good guy, don’t get me wrong, but he was a damn CHILD. like he may have been experienced sexually but he was not ready for a serious relationship. ANYWAY, this boy would smack my crotch and grab my titty in public. he even grabbed my titty while i was in the SHOWER and while my MOM, BROTHER, AND HIS FRIEND were home. like seriously???? anyway, we went to different schools so we only saw each other on weekends. so you’d think “oh you guys must be talking all the time right???” well, close. we’d text only when we couldn’t ft. other than that, we’d ft EVERY WAKING HOUR, INCLUDING when he was taking a shit. he even fted me one time while he was SHITTING and i was at his HOUSE. he’d also ask me to leave it on ft throughout the night. but, back to the daily thing, guess what happened during these non-stop ft sessions?NOTHING. when we would first ft we’d be like “oh how was your day” and stuff and he’d talk about his day and go on about funny things that happened in his life or whatever, and i almost never got a word in. we’d almost never have an actual conversation on ft, he’d watch tv or play video games, while i was just there. i talked to him about it a few times, but it never changed. and even while we were together, all we did was either look at memes and cuddle or do some sexual shit. for example, we ended up being home alone (long story) and we had sex for the first time. wanna know what happened after? we sat on the couch and looked at memes while i tried to talk to him or cuddle with him. bc HE wanted to. also, he’d lie to me about a lot of stuff. when we were first talking he told me that he didn’t have his permit (lie) and he told me that he was taking a test for his permit it was actually for his license. he said it was to surprise me. which like i get, but like seriously??? that’s a little far. like if i knew he had his permit and told me that he failed the test for his license and then randomly showed up at my house, i’d be happy about it. but no. ALSO he lied to me A LOT about how much he drank or smoked and if he even did. alright another thing, i spent $120 on his christmas gift and you wanna know what i got? nothing. he first said he was going to buy me $40 worth of chocolate, and THEN said “no i’m going to build you a gaming device so you can play your zelda games anywhere.” and i was like OMG THATS AWESOME THANK YOU SO MUCH I LOVE YOU. guess what? he gave up. he also was writing me a song (another great gesture) but also gave up on that. also, if you want to full experience of this next thing, listen to the song i’m about to mention. i’m an expert skier and he’s pretty good at snowboarding. he usually brings a speaker and listens to music. i asked him not to bc i don’t really like to, and we do what he wants all the time (also my dad was driving him up to the mountain and helped provide for our trip, and the only reason he was going was bc of me) buuuuuut he did anyway. he blasted the most AWFUL song, “homegrown tomatoes” by guy clark. i. hated. life. so after a while, i couldn’t take his childishness anymore and i broke up with him. he’d beg me daily for a second chance and told me that he had changed and that he was hurting bc i didn’t see that. EXCUSE ME???? he acted like he had NO IDEA about the emotional trauma he put me through. another example, i was telling him about a really bad ex i had, and it was a hard thing to talk about. guess what he was doing the whole time? PLAYING VIDEO GAMES. it hurt man. there’s a lot of other stuff, but i’d rather not bring them up. ANYWAY. i’ve known candle for about a year, maybe more. i started talking to him about two weeks ago, maybe three, and he’s complimented me DAILY. he’s been considerate and he’s a great listener. he’s so funny, and he’s the cutest guy ever. he’s mature for his age (door knob is 16, i’m 15, candle is 14) and i can’t believe how much more mature he is than door knob. he’s always been there for me, he’s listen to me rant and he’s been my shoulder to cry on when door knob was being a jerk. me and candle stay up till almost 3am talking about anything and everything, while door knob went to bed early, even when i was upset and needed him. i asked one simple thing from door knob one time, the SIMPLEST THING TO CHEER ME UP. i asked him to tell me a story. he said “he couldn’t think of one” and when i asked him to make up one or something, he was like oops sorry i’m asleep. so i went to candle. he couldn’t think of one, and he couldn’t make up one, so he went the extra step and searched for one on the internet that was stupid and funny. that night, i almost left door knob for candle. a few months after dumping door knob, candle came into the picture, and i have been happier than i have been in a WHILE. i’m gonna add some text messages between me and candle, but besides that, thanks for listening to my ted talk