This pain...

In December of 2018 I had a miscarriage. I had no idea I was pregnant until I lost him/her. I would have only been about 6 weeks. People tell me “there wasn’t really much of a baby” or “it’s common” or “it was so early”... but I just have this pain like something is missing. It just never goes away. It gets worse at times and tonight is one of those times. I don’t talk to friends or family because they just say the same things... but I’m broken... and I ask myself “should I feel like this” because I mean they are right in some ways...

yes I was very early along but I had a little seed growing inside of me and I had no idea... I can’t help but to blame myself.

Sometimes I just think I’m stupid but I know I shouldn’t.