Pregnant after MC

I had a MC dec 2018 and I’m now 6 weeks 1 day along. We found out 4/10. I have PTSD from the MC that’s pretty bad. They put me on progesterone vaginal gel once every night to help me, but I haven’t had any draws yet. My first appt is 5/8 and I’m trying not to keep peeing on sticks like I did last time. Last time I had a feeling of doom from the first positive test and I spent 3 weeks staring at the lines and comparing the darkness of them. My intuition was clearly correct.

I don’t feel doomed this time, but I’m terrified and in semi denial that I even am carrying a baby. I don’t feel pregnant. I’m not nauseas. I have occasional breast tenderness and slightly more hungry than usual. I’m trying to stay calm, we’re on vacation this week, but it’s so hard to.

Did anyone have success with the progesterone? Or advise for me? I’m in desperate need