I really hate my body right now.

Hey y’all, I’m really not looking for any judgment I just really need to vent somewhere.

I’m 17 weeks and 4 days. I’ve always been “too skinny”. Like to the point where the girls in the locker room at school would say I’m anorexic and kids would tell the teachers who would take it upon themselves to ask if I was eating.

Anyway, flash forward, I get to a point where I finally love my body. I was okay with my bra size, I got some piercings and tattoos that I liked, things re:body image were pretty good. Then I got pregnant and it seems like I’m gaining weight in all the wrong places. I have a weird “muffin top” right above where the waist of my pants is and it doesn’t even get better with leggings so I feel like I can’t show off my little bump. Not to mention none of my cute Victoria’s Secret bras fit me anymore and my arms jiggle, which my boyfriend makes fun of (he doesn’t do it to be mean or cruel he just doesn’t get that sometimes it kinda hurts my feelings). I’m also trying to come to terms with the fact that my body will probably never be the same when I give birth.

I don’t make this post to shame anyone for their size by any means, please don’t take it that way. I just really feel insecure about my body right now and I needed to get that out somewhere. I know I’m growing a human and that’s wonderful I just also wasn’t ready for all of this. Sorry for the long post.