Emotional abuse

So last night I asked my partner to leave after 5 years of emotional and financial abuse. He would spend all of my wages and any other income on himself and leave me to struggle with two children under the age of 5, I would be called ugly fat stupid vile useless waste of space all kind of names.

He would go out everyday and come home and stupid o’clock the kids would hardly ever see him.

He’s 23 with no job I felt like he wanted to live a single life but still have us at home. I had to make sure everything was perfect for him.

I wasn’t allowed to ask any questions about where the money had gone how are we going to survive it was always my fault. I work really hard for my wages as well. Yesterday I had a text from my bank telling me I was overdrawn my £50 so I called the bank they explained to me money was spent in betting shops and online betting at 1am in the morning.

When I questioned him about it he left and went out then came home and I told him to leave to my surprise he actually packed his stuff and left obviously everything was still my fault.

Sorry for the long post I just feel lost what do I do now. Of course the children come first I just never thought he’d leave I feel on edge that he’s just going to turn up.