Feelings

So, I know I'm going to sound selfish or ungrateful but I'm having a hard time being happy. I have 2 boys and a daughter of my own already so with this baby I wasn't really hoping for one or the other this time around. Not until my husband made it pretty known to his entire family that he really wanted a boy since he only has a daughter from a previous relationship. Well, we had our anatomy scan and it was very clear we're having a girl. After I couldn't help myself I know it's nothing to do with me but I started bawling. I felt like I let him down even though I know it's not. He tried to tell me it's ok and he's not disappointed but then when he told his family one by one i could hear it in his voice and from their reaction no one is really happy. I'm the type of person that normally is an empath and now being pregnant it's even more magnified. I've cried so much just feeling like she's not gonna be loved or wanted as much as she would have been. Even my kids aren't too thrilled. I overheard my daughter saying she really was hoping it would have been a boy. It's like no one is just truly happy. And now I don't wanna go shopping or even look at names bc in a way I feel so alone and a disappointment. I know I just need to snap out of it but I don't know how.